Hm, it's been literally decades since I last blogged. The desire to write just faded off once I went public with it. It just again added up to the verification that I'm not so much of a person who like to share my thoughts with the world. So why start again now? I guess with the blog half dying, readers will forget about it and it's comforting for now that not so much eyes are on what I write. Yea, I care about what other people think about me. Not as much as before, but just not comfortable with it, maybe not forever, but still not. Plus, I just find it compelling to write whatever I'm going to write later down, both as a record and as a way of organizing my thoughts.
Anyways for those readers who're still here and care about what's happening with me,
no I did not change job, no I did not change my goals, yes I'm still studying and yes I'm still running. But things will be changing soon.
I guess this is another turning point in my life where I level-up to become a better person.
5 years ago in while I was in university, I experienced and overcome something so devastating to me which left me only 2 options then, to fall or to bounce. I choose the latter. It wasn't much of a decision where I tinker through it for days and nights. More of I just changed after those depressive days. I became more talkative, ambitious, restless, daring, thick-faced (in some situations), plus a few more perks that comes with it. Good? maybe, depending on what you're comparing to...
So 5 years later, still alive, 8 KGs down (no this is not about losing weight XD), an analyst, an athlete wit a daring goal, a Masters student, a practicing-coach, a reader, with a lovely girl which I gonna marry one day, and still a son to the same parents.
People would say I've a very clear goal in mind, knowing what I really want, how I want it, and how I'm going to get it. When I set those goals, during the time, yes, I will not contemplate to agree that those are what I want, how I want it, and how I'm going to get it. Is it still the same now?
I realize that for the past 1 month, I've been in constant thought process in regards to my world-view (my meaning towards whatever that's important/around me). Things like:
What does money mean to me now?
What is really my passion?
Are my goals mine?
Friendship and myself
Family Values and Upbringing and myself
Ultimately: What do I really really want to achieve before I die?
How do I see my future now and is it what I really want?
Now that I've organized my thoughts here, I will go through each question as an entry. Great, a good start.
And where's it about love?
For now, that area is stable, growing, and blossoming. I'm glad I took the initiative to be honest. Things had change, for myself. Speaking out may not change any behaviors, but it does improve how I see and feel about thing and may not care so much anymore. So as mentioned above. I've a lovely girl friend which I'm gonna marry one day =D
And where's it about love?
For now, that area is stable, growing, and blossoming. I'm glad I took the initiative to be honest. Things had change, for myself. Speaking out may not change any behaviors, but it does improve how I see and feel about thing and may not care so much anymore. So as mentioned above. I've a lovely girl friend which I'm gonna marry one day =D
I guess I'm into the transition in life where I'm ready to form new perspectives of things and people around me.
