OK, this sounds wrong because lots of people "pantang" with anything that's related to the after-world aka dead-people's world. But in this modern world, as mindsets could be switched from A to Z in an instant, nothing is anymore "pantang" when a self-written eulogy could be used in counselling or soul-searching sessions (and it's research valid!). It was what we in our counselling class during my university years was asked to do for our "Know Yourself" assignment, which I assumed the purpose of this section is to reflect on the deeds and bads we'd done so far in our life, and what we thought/feel thinking about it:
(yeah, sometimes I didn't know what I wrote, I never check my work before handing it over)
Below is your tombstone.
Fill in what you believe would be written on it.
(DATES ARE NOT NEEDED)
It was interesting reading back on my assignment. I was amazed at my own use of language, grammar, writing style, and mindset at the point of writing.
But that time, I wasn't such an assertive boy. I'm more interested in what others had to say about me because I'm just so INSECURE with myself and my surroundings, yeah pity my old-self XD. So I went out of the topic and got my friend(s) to write me my eulogy, and my job was just to compile it. I got to finish my assignment, and at the meantime, satisfy my insecure-desperado-desire for people to acknowledge me. And thought why not share it out for a laugh, an experience, a knowledge (for those who do not know what an eulogy looks like), and to get to know a little about my old-self, and again, for myself to indulge in acknowledgement *ehem* relive my memories of "assignment days" =p
So here it goes...
"To our beloved Nicholas,
It is my honor having a chance to stand on this very stage today, to accompany my best buddy along the way to heaven. Guess what, I had already prepared this speech when he was still alive! He asked me to write one for his assignment. Isn't it ridiculous! Yes, we always enjoy being ridiculous to each other, though he always won. He is the person who stayed up late at night trying his very best to make his dream comes true even when he was all alone. Being a true friend, he was there everytime I needed someone to be with me in silences, and he was always good at that - being the cool guy that everyone knew. He always acted like a robot that would never get hurt, both physically and emotionally.
Though I was his best buddy, it cook me a hard time trying to know what he thinks and feels. But I was glad that he was willing to share openly with me, which also included those CRIMES that he did when he was alive. Surprisingly, he disclosed his stories honestly to me, just to have someone to scold him and was happy being lectured! That was why we always enjoyed the "yumcha" sessions with "teh tarik lagi" and "lagi". It was just because, I know it is rare to find someone who I can really talk like nobody's business with. Sometimes I felt that, there was nothing that I can hide from him, no matter how much I kept quiet, or acted, and concealed myself. he could just see through, just like I was being stripped naked. For this, I appreciated him, very very much.
Me and him, shared almost the same passion in life, such as organizing events, art, psychology, and music. Although we never really spent time on it. And love? Yeah, he had quite dramatic and complicated love stories. He was someone romantic, caring but not so gentlemen sometimes. He was a good lover, but most of the times, he just forgot to love himself even more. It is okay, our love to him is more than sufficient, from the past, present, and forever after inside all of our hearts stays Nicholas Chew."
Wasn't that an awesome eulogy you could ever hope to be read out by your most lovely person when you're going-off? Such assignment acted as both an acknowledgement, a reminder, and a "knock" for me of what I did, can do, and can amend to make life better for myself and people around me. Why not try it for yourself? If you're "pantang" about it, you could start with a reflection paper, or interview your close buddies on what kind of person you are? Those that only give positive response, heck, either you're really a perfect angel! Or you could use a change of friend...
AWESOME~!
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