#84: I love it when my girl...

Thought of giving my girl some acknowledgement and to-know, since I rarely do this, and even though I did it, I don't sound sincere to her, for God knows what reason. It's hard to be an introvert at times, the extreme ones, when you just don't want to talk, even when your mind have something to say, for what's sake? Seriously, I wonder... *maybe it's like the first days woo-ing a girl, the shyness"

So I'll dedicate this post to my beloved...

I love it when my girl...

*Act cute - Yeah, I always tease her whenever she "act-cute", but it seems to reinforced her to do more, so, I continue to tease!

*Smile with big teary eyes - nothing beats this!

*Ask questions - so that I can be a smart ass XD!

*Speaks her thoughts - girls...appreciate it when they are direct and straight to the point

*Is smart at the right time - it's hard to nail this, but when she does, problems are no more problems!

*Gives me some small surprises - Yeah I nag her for spending on stuff for me that're unnecessary, but I'm happy when she does that, after the nagging that is. Just...ahh, she knows.

*Sleeps - seriously who don't like to watch their girl sleeping?! At least for me it's way better than her usually someone-pissed-me-off-face

*Wake up from sleep - she just look so innocent, just for that few seconds, hence the love of me to hug her ONLY at that specific moment.

*Encourages me - this happened only that ONCE. Enough for me to remember a life time. That one moment when she says, "I always encourage you to work and travel..." or something similar. Although happening once is why it's precious, I hope it's not =p

*Have tactile contact with me - whatever you readers wanna think about.

*Tells me that she's putting in effort to live a better life - couldn't be more happy than any of the above.

Owh, now I know I've this much I love about you...XD

#83: New Perspectives

Hm, it's been literally decades since I last blogged. The desire to write just faded off once I went public with it. It just again added up to the verification that I'm not so much of a person who like to share my thoughts with the world. So why start again now? I guess with the blog half dying, readers will forget about it and it's comforting for now that not so much eyes are on what I write. Yea, I care about what other people think about me. Not as much as before, but just not comfortable with it, maybe not forever, but still not. Plus, I just find it compelling to write whatever I'm going to write later down, both as a record and as a way of organizing my thoughts.

Anyways for those readers who're still here and care about what's happening with me,

no I did not change job, no I did not change my goals, yes I'm still studying and yes I'm still running. But things will be changing soon.

I guess this is another turning point in my life where I level-up to become a better person.

5 years ago in while I was in university, I experienced and overcome something so devastating to me which left me only 2 options then, to fall or to bounce. I choose the latter. It wasn't much of a decision where I tinker through it for days and nights. More of I just changed after those depressive days.  I became more talkative, ambitious, restless, daring, thick-faced (in some situations), plus a few more perks that comes with it. Good? maybe, depending on what you're comparing to...

So 5 years later, still alive, 8 KGs down (no this is not about losing weight XD), an analyst, an athlete wit a daring goal, a Masters student, a practicing-coach, a reader, with a lovely girl which I gonna marry one day, and still a son to the same parents.

People would say I've a very clear goal in mind, knowing what I really want, how I want it, and how I'm going to get it. When I set those goals, during the time, yes, I will not contemplate to agree that those are what I want, how I want it, and how I'm going to get it. Is it still the same now?

I realize that for the past 1 month, I've been in constant thought process in regards to my world-view (my meaning towards whatever that's important/around me). Things like:

What does money mean to me now?

What is really my passion?

Are my goals mine?

Friendship and myself

Family Values and Upbringing and myself

Ultimately: What do I really really want to achieve before I die?

How do I see my future now and is it what I really want?

Now that I've organized my thoughts here, I will go through each question as an entry. Great, a good start.

And where's it about love?
For now, that area is stable, growing, and blossoming. I'm glad I took the initiative to be honest. Things had change, for myself. Speaking out may not change any behaviors, but it does improve how I see and feel about thing and may not care so much anymore. So as mentioned above. I've a lovely girl friend which I'm gonna marry one day =D

I guess I'm into the transition in life where I'm ready to form new perspectives of things and people around me.